Tuesday, September 14, 2004
So... my question is... "Does it ever end?" It seems that just when things might start to be looking up, something happens that really discourages me. Yesterday, I was "let go" from my job. They said that due to some changes in the organization of the company, they were going to eliminate my position. About 75% of is really happy because I hated that job anyway, but the other 25% of me is a bit frightened because with having a job, I was able to get a car, which now I have no money with which to pay for the car (or the car insurance). My parents have been super cool about it, but I know they don't plan on supporting me forever. I guess my temporary fix is to go to the mall and find a retail job just to keep some money in my pocket while I try and find another job. I spent the day scouting out jobs to send my resume, so I am on top of the game. Hopefully the stars are realigning in my favor. I guess I am just trying not to be completely discouraged. Part of me thinks that maybe this is a sign that I shouldn't be here... maybe... I should really consider trying to make things happen in PA again... but I am kind of seeing someone and it's about as hopeful and promising as it can be for at this stage of the game and at this point in my life. Of course I would not give up a good job for a guy, but it's just another empty beer can in the already overloaded dumpster of a brain that I possess. Part of me thinks it's a sign that I can only do better... I mean I was underpaid, all of the similar positions I've seen on the shrm website and monster and what not all have higher starting salaries, so maybe it's a good thing... or perhaps my unavoidable optimism is trying to convince myself of that. Regardless, no optimism can take away the fact that I am absolutely broke.
Posted at 05:39 pm by traegermeister
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
I have meant to "blog" a whole bunch in the past few days but when it comes down to it, I either went to sleep or just had an ADD moment and got distracted.
I am watching Bands Reunited for New Kids on the Block and for some stupid reason I am more excited for the reunion than I ever was for the actual band. The ones that were not so hot have gotten hotter. Jordan got a bit pudgey and his brother got cute. Regardless, why am I more into the reunion than I was the actual band when they were actually cool?
I have the worst sunburn ever. I went out on the boat on Monday and for some retarded reason I didn't put any sunblock on (which is the most absolutely retarded thing ever considering how pale I am). My face is super red, but luckily that was easily remedied with some dermablend. My neck managed to stay white, but my chest and shoulders got fried. One arm is more red than the other too. I look super weird and it's painful.
A side note, Bands Reunited is over... the New Kids did not reunite. Now the Surreal Life is on and Charo is fucking hilarious. Flava Flav is one of the blackest black people ever. He is super dark skinned, he's been arrested as many times as he has illegitimate kids... oh and I can only understand about 33% of what he says.
Enough with the TV, regardless of how entertaining it is. I bought the Garden State soundtrack of course because I loved the movie so much. The cd is awesome. Really awesome. I would suggest it if you have $15 extra bucks to invest. I also purchased the Jaime Cullum cd because it was only $7 on the VH1 website with no shipping cost! I didn't really like that song that he has that's a single, but I usually have VH1 on in the morning when I am getting ready for work and it just so happened that I saw some footage from a live show and it was good... so I figured it was worth a $7 try.
So it's no secret that I am super frustrated with my job. It's no secret that I am underpaid and overqualified. It's no secret that my "superior" is only superior to a single ant... even then, I think the ant has a better work ethic. So anyway I kind of went over his head with my frustrations to the Director of Human Resources of the company. She pushed the president to have me "upgraded" but he is a tight ass president of a manufacturing company who is about as chauvinistic and old school as they come... so basically he said no.... so she was very cool about it, she said that she most definitely would be looking for a new job if she was in my situation. She also said that she would not like to see me leave because my boss doesn't realize it but he really needs my help, but she knows I need something more so she said she'd offer to help me. She has reviewed my resume and made it look sooooo much better. She also paid for my SHRM membership so that I can network a bit more. Well, then I got some stuff from Vanderbilt in the mail and I got to thinking. I will have made jack shit this year and if I wanted to... I could go ahead and take the GRE/GMAT or whatever and try and get into Vandy. If I use this years tax information I should be able to get a deal on some aid or loans or some shit to start in the Fall of 2005... in addition I have a super flexible schedule... so maybe there is an upside to my super shitty job. Only time shall tell what exactly will come of all of this... in the meantime I will continue to bitch. If you don't like it, bite my white ass (the only white part left of my body)
I am doing good with the diet.... 25 lbs and continuing. I am starting to fit in smaller clothes... hopefully by Winter, I'll need all new clothes. I only wonder why I waited so long to do this.
Now that all the aloe vera gel has soaked into my skin and I am not sticky anymore, I think I am going to go brush my teeth and crash.
Posted at 09:57 pm by traegermeister
Saturday, August 28, 2004
So I had a bad day. A job interview that was a diaster. It wasn't bad that I didn't get the job so much as it was a question that the interviewer asked. She asked me if there was more opportunity for me to get more experience in my current position, and I realized... no I don't. This just depressed me beyond belief. I cried my eyes out and Pablo showed up so I felt bad that I am crying and crying and he's just trying to hug me and ask me what's wrong. I finally calmed down and took a nap and the night got better. We went to Applebee's and it was the worst service ever. I went to the bathroom after drinking a ton of water and there were like 3 waitresses in the toilet smoking and they didn't wash their hands when they left. After getting the hell out of there, we went to see Garden State and it was such a great movie. I didn't think it would be as good as it was. I even think Mr. Escobar understood it. In any case, I kind of felt a headache come on so we stopped and got a bottle of water because I conviently happened to have some Excedrin in my purse. As I was waiting for him to come back with the water, I realized that I really started feeling shitty. The car ride home was agony because he is not a smooth driver with the standard transmission. I barely made it out of the car so I could vomit everything I have ever eaten in my entire life in the front yard. I had to pee too because of the massive amount of water I had drank over the course of the evening and it made for an interesting situation. I had to run inside and up the stairs so I could pee and puke in the trash can. I know how to have a good time! So now I am chillin' in my pj's and explaining to anyone who will read this how weird my day was. Garden State was funny though, highly recommended by me, if that matters at all.
Posted at 12:22 am by traegermeister
Thursday, August 26, 2004
I originally was going to post because I am at work and bored out of my mind because my boss is an idiot. Then, I noticed my "lil sis" posted a little thing in the chat window and that just made me even more mad... well not mad but I thought I would point out something. When I call her my little sister, she corrects me with, "YOUNGER sister." Then she calls herself "lil sis"... what the fuck? Anyway I am so pissed off. I know now why people go to work and shoot up the place. They work for an idiot from Texas who talks on the phone all day, talks only about his record collection of country music, and thinks HIPAA is spelled HIPPA. I think Mc Donald's would be a better suited place of employment for this clown sometimes. (Mc Donald's... clown.... I too easily amuse myself)
Posted at 08:36 am by traegermeister
Thursday, August 19, 2004
Holy Shit, I have a life!
Or so I try and fool myself into thinking so. Between work, my family, and what not, I haven't had time to post a blog. I am super duper tired and I have a UTI so I am cranky, but I thought I would just do a little posting because it's been crazy. I spent pretty much all of my Monday at the hospital between my sister (who suddenly had a ruptured cyst) and a workers' comp injury from work (obviously) and then since then, I've tried to catch up on my laundry, sleep, and cleaning. I have lost a total of 20lbs and some 8 or so inches. Go me! I am wearing jeans I haven't worn since December. In any case, once I have cleaned my car and my room and all of my other errands that I have to do.... I'll post again.
Posted at 10:04 pm by traegermeister
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Jon is here, of course, and we went out last night with Mark (who likes to post little messages every now and then) and the night started of quite slowly. Oh wait, I guess not because I got a fucking flat tire. Good thing I was out with boys. They changed it and we were on our way to the bar. Jon had like one beer and he was on a roll. We went to the Flying Saucer and he started off with an Arrogant Bastard and magically, he was transformed into one. They had another beer and we moved on the the Beer Sellar, it was kind of slow but once we sat at the bar and Jon had a few more, the obnoxiousness was elevated to a whole new level. On the ride home, he made sure to yell "Hey, baby" to passing people, as well as move around to every inch of the back seat while dictating which songs I should play and on which cd. Poor Mark must think my family is a bunch of loonies. He would be right, but I am trying to keep that from getting out as much as possible. We laughed ourselves to sleep, and this morning my grandmother told me she heard someone crying.... I think grandma got a contact high. All in all, it was quite an amusing night.
Posted at 12:39 pm by traegermeister
Friday, August 06, 2004
So Jon has arrived. We went to dinner in the Boro and to Bluesboro (one of the only ok bars in that stupid town) and it was all you can drink Amberbock and Ultra for $6. I didn't drink though! I was thinking about it at the beginning of the week, but then on Wednesday I went to LA Weightloss and I lost a total of like 16 lbs and 8 inches since I started so I decided I didn't need the beer that bad. And we stopped and got a pack of cloves which really helped me out. It was fun at Bluesboro considering every single person in that place, excluding Jon and I were complete douches. We spent most of our time laughing at people, which is always one of the best ways to have a good time. See, Bryan (the douche) is missing out. I am happy and sober and obviously trying to convince myself too. No, I am having fun. I think today, once Jon crawls out from under his hangover, we are gonna go find some trouble and go to Jimmy John's (where I'll watch Jon eat). I don't care, I am getting hot :) Well I am sick of trying to convince myself that I am, in fact, ok with being completely deprived of alcohol. I seriously need to join a 12 step program.
Posted at 09:19 am by traegermeister
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
My car smells like crayons
I have a new car (new to me) and it has a peculiar smell to it. I don't know if it's the leather interior or just the former owner but it smells like crayons. I knew it had a funny smell but I have to give my sister the credit for pinpointing the exact smell. So.... I had it cleaned twice and the car wash place sprayed air freshener in the car both times and it did nothing. I went to Wal Mart last week and purchased two $5 air fresheners that didn't make a difference either. They were some kind of gel in a can type things and it kind of pissed me off that they didn't make the car smell good, even when it sat in the sun all day at work for a couple of days. So I went to Wal Mart tonight and I got two of those oil ones that you put on the air vents. And as I was going through the check out, I picked up another air freshener. This means I have a total of 5 tropical scented air fresheners in my little car. If it doesn't smell like the islands by the end of the week, I am just going to put a box of Crayola's under the seat. I figure if I can't beat it, I might as well embrace it.
Oh and today was a decent day at work because I got to be a stool pigeon. When I am not so freakin' tired, I'll elaborate.
Posted at 11:16 pm by traegermeister
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
Heaven ain't close in a place like this
Ok... I can't get enough of the Killer's cd. Have you guys heard this stuff? It's like heroin for the ears. It doesn't help the single is SUPER catchy with somewhat weird lyrics... then I get the CD and I am addicted. One day I might join a 12-step program... I use the little dots alot, don't I? Yeah? Shut the fuck up
Posted at 10:48 pm by traegermeister
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Boredom and a shitty computer make you come to certain realizations
Yeah so I am sitting here at work kind of bored because neither of the computers in this office are worth a $2 hooker (which is really less than the market value... please don't be fooled). I am listening to the latest Travis CD which was a Christmas gift (not so new I suppose, but the last one they put out). Regardless, I was listening to it alot while dating a guy named Travis... silly I know, but it is a good cd. I think it is kind of sad and more of a winter weather cd. Perhaps because I associate the cd with the winter when it was in heavy rotation in the cd player. Or perhaps because I just hear things that no one else hears, but with songs like Mid-life crisis and Re-Offender... it's not upbeat and summerish at all. Oh well I just overanalyzed a damn cd because I am bored and Mark is working days now so he is not online :(
I am such a baby
Peace the fuck out
just a little plug for all those Travis fans out there... oh wait, there aren't any... it's just for my own amusement
Posted at 08:28 am by traegermeister
